The Beauty that Comes within

Living a life like mines(A Transsexual Life) It can be hard to find and accepted your Beauty. For many of, when we begin our transition from one gender to the other, we begin to look at ourselves in a whole new light. For example, before I transitioned, i would dress up in my sisters,mothers and any girly clothing I could find in the house. I  would play with make up and fix my hair to resemble that of a girl and to be honest those were happy days; being able to be myself, even if its behind closed doors, was an amazing feeling. With that said during those times not one moment did I ever think about surgeries other than S.R.S(Sex reassignment Surgery) or ever questioned that I was a girl or that I looked like a girl. but the moment I truly began my transition all that changed, I didn't feel as pretty as before, I didn't feel like i was truly a girl, i felt so ugly and manly(mainly because of what was presented as what a girl should look like). As well  as what older transsexuals would say on youtube. SO it took many months and years to accepted myself for who I am and what I am. I slow realized that a "real women" is not a women who has big boobs, make face,big lips and curves for the gods, or a vagina in that case. I learned that a "Real women" is someone who represents themselves as a women, loves them self, its not base on home Fem you look, because real women come in all shapes,sizes and forms. We as Trans-women  just happen to be one form of a women. So with that being said, I just want to let ya'll know that you are beautiful and that don't get any unwanted surgery because you feel you need it to fit in or have people like you. If anything get things done because YOU want them and for YOURSELF and not one else. But before deciding on getting anything embrace who you are an love your yourself. :)



Peace,Love,Fierce

Love always,
Johanna.P


P.S I hope this helps someone out there and makes sense. if you have any questions feel free to ask :)

OUTFEST: Gun Hill Road

Hello, Doll's

Lets begin this tale...

 So July 7,2011 I began my first day of classes at FIDM and boy was that morning crazy. I woke up late  and had to rush everything so that I can make it in time to class; otherwise I would be dropped from my class. So it was just not my date.During the whole time I was on the train heading towards school I was praying to god and texting my friends to tell the instructor that I will be late. Anywho, Long story short, I got to class 1 minute late and had a blast in class. The rest of my day involed me going to CHLA to see my Doctor about my hormones   and what not and as well as getting  my shot. Once I was done seeing my doctor and going  to group(Tranny Rock Star) I booked  it home so that I could have time to get ready and arrive early to the Opening Night of Gun Hill Road.



[Once at  Orpheum Theatre ]

   So the day when on I arrived extra early at the event, which was good because  I got to see some of  the stars of the movie and others of course. There was even a red carpet.

   

Harmony Santana

     I kinda felt bad because there were some Celebrities that were there

that I didn't know their name or who they were .Sounds Funny I

know,but its true. So since being an early bird and all I took some

photos and video of the event and just waited for my party to come.It

was finally time to go inside and be setting; by this time my party was

there excepted one person Alexis. Alexis is the type of girl who likes to

make an  entrance, not because thats her goal, but because she tends to

Harmony Santana and I

always(for the most part) be late and look good.

















[Once inside]

  Well I arrived at the event at 6:50 and the movie

didn't start until 9:00pm. SO I was there a very long

time. Once inside I just dropped dead. The inside of

the theater was just beautiful.Filled with We were

then setted. We waiedt with friends to see the

movie   and during that time I was waiting for Alexis

to come; She finally did.

calpernia and I

[The Beginng]So the lights finally went down and the show was about to begin. Before the movie could start we had some performances and and some people speak; RuPaul was one many as well as the cast of "Gun Hill Road". Long story short, awards were given out , performances by sexy men, and speakers. 

Director: Rashaad Ernesto Green and I

The movie finally began and it was just amazing. After the film was over I was able to speak with Harmony Santana(Star of Gun Hill Road) I even got to interview her. I also spoke with other, which will take to long to mention so I wuill just post photos. After the film was over and after mingling a little bit, we all went to the after party and had a blast got to meet some amazing people and had a good adult fun.(Meaning the after party didn't feel like a High School kick back or club scene.)

Judy Reyes and I

Annabell and I

                                                                                           

Alexis and I

The one and Only RuPaul

The FIlm:"Gun Hill  Road"

 One of the best films I've seen!.the Film is about a young teen boy who is on his way to becoming a women. When his father gets out of jail after being in there for 3 years things change. Take a look at the trailer. The film will come out in LA and NY in August . Please suppport the film by telling your friends and family   

http://youtu.be/09zgt6-f_b4

Club Wannabe

On June 26,2011 My friend Kitt and I decided to hit Hollywood for the night life. We  went to a club called Club Wannabe. Now before arriving to that club Kitt got lost on her way to the club, while I on the other hand was  already at the club waiting for her call. She finally arrived and we had a blast just dancing the night away. Which we really did. We left at closing time which was 2 A.M. and went to eat some pizza at a near by place.  Now we had three to four hours to kill until we were able to go home , so we did want anyone else would do; kill time. we walked up and down and around Hollywood just to kill time. while on our journey through the night we met some  interesting people. In the end we spent the night with two guys named Gang King, and Kannss Boy; for protection purposes. It was a blast we talked until the sun came up, which was at 5:45  A.M.

PHOTO TIME!

My outfit for the Night

Ms.Kitt with her sexy outfit

Me and Kitt

The Famous Izzy Hilton and I

Up Close and personal

Day after the club and still look goood :)